Was a "product" been produced in 1991 by the combination of sperm n ovum.
Living an aimless life now because I have no idea what to do in the future. lololol.
Gonna love myself more to have a happier life. :D Come near me and ask anything u wanna know bout me.
I won't bite :p
first week to school was great. lectures are friendly n can understand what they're teaching (cant understand their teaching is the thing i worried most). not having much work yet. everything going smoothly.
today is my worst day for this week! fuck it! because of someone n some reasons, i really get moody n having bad mood.
sighsssss! can u please care bout my feelings?! u have all those friends there with u n u guys are having so much fun. but i have no friends here, i have nothing here but only loneliness. so can u don do those shits to make me feel more worst?!
tell myself to forget everything so that i can still move on. is that mean i has to forget those friends i had? what's friends really are? i thought i had a gang of best friends, but i don feel like I'm one of them after i came here. when there are new friends, will i be replace? for me, i think the answer will be 'yes'!
how sad! for me here, they're almost everything to me. but for them, I'm just nothing i think. should i say 'let's forget bout them so that i wont be so suffering for missing them'?......
Sunday, October 11, 2009
11:12 PM
no internet connection so cant online since i reached New Zealand. tonight is my first night staying with my host family. a friendly woman she is. lucky me :)
its 11.15p.m now. lying on the bed for almost an hour. CANT SLEEP LA!!! why why why??!! tomorrow is my school day. am i excited?? i think I'm more nervous than excited lo. LOL
another reason i cant sleep is.... I MISS MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY!!! I MISS MIRI!!! :'( *take a deep breath, try to control my tears for not falling down my cheeks. and keep telling myself to be tough
this is the decision i made. so i need to have the courage to continue it. no one can help me. I FEEL SO LONELY!!! :(
(P/S: Mei Ching, Veronica, Xiao Ling and Cynthia gave me a surprised when I'm gonna departed from Brunei Airport. they cheated me that they'll not send me but they appeared!!! oh man, u guys really surprised me!!! few drops of tears falling down my cheeks when i saw them, but i managed to control myself :) I LOVE U ALL MY FRIENDS!!! xxx )
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
3:49 AM
Oh my god!!! tomorrow then I'm gonna leave here dy :( I haven say good bye to all my friends properly la! :'(
Have to wake up very very very the early tomorrow. Sigh~~~ Might heading up to brunei at 5something in the morning. My flight is at 11 something. From Brunei -----> Auckland (will reach Auckland at 2something a.m. zzz) then flight from Auckland to Dunedin is at 7something in the morning (if I'm not mistaken. LOL)
I think I wont be able to sleep tonight. Excited, nervous, she bu de... My feeling now is so complicated. Haih :(
i think this is so damn accurate man!!! accurate until i cant deny it. zzz
Monday, October 5, 2009
11:57 PM
2 more days to go then I'm gonna leave here and go to NewZealand dy. OMGoatssss!!!! Time pass so fast!!! After i leave then i can only come back after one year which is end of next year (Nov,2010) Oh man!!! I'm sure that I'm gonna miss my friends!!! I guarantee!!! :)
LOL
My friends, thanks for what u guys did. I'm happy and i appreciate it :) Its so good to have u guys. Take care ya :) Keep in touch :)