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Was a "product" been produced in 1991 by the combination of sperm n ovum. Living an aimless life now because I have no idea what to do in the future. lololol. Gonna love myself more to have a happier life. :D Come near me and ask anything u wanna know bout me. I won't bite :p

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Thursday, October 14, 2010 1:21 AM

懂得现实的残酷,所以选择活在幻想里,至少一切都是美好的

你说我自欺欺人也好,说我幼稚也罢

我不需要得到所有人的认同来使自己快乐

我爱的人了解我就够了

因为懂得太多,所以我选择装傻

我并不是真傻,只是经历了很多,所以很多事都已学会放下,或是在学习放下

因为经历的多,很多单纯的想法已经消失

不想被人看穿我的脆弱,所以一直在伪装自己

表面上,我看起来很傻,我只是不想被所有人看见被现实洗礼后的我,变得有多势利

不喜欢现在的自己,可是人不可能抛弃自己

所以在学习让自己活的开心自在

说不在意别人的眼光言论,是骗你的

当不实的事情一直被传开,不了解的人会认为那才是真实的你

了解你的人会为你打摆不平

所以,人言可畏

我不介意被别人懂我是个怎样的人,因为我就是我

我不需要改变自己的性格来迎合所有人

我面对不同的人会有不同的面对方式

这不是我假,而是没有办法的事

人是群体动物,再怎么不喜欢,你还是必须跟人打交道

我只是不想把场面弄得太难看


我坚持自己最基本的原则

对人,我都很真诚

我当你是朋友,我会愿意为你两肋插刀,因为我很讲义气

但不要背叛或欺骗我,我会让你后悔的

我很好哄,很多事情我只是要一个合理的解释

信仰“别人对我好,我也会对你还;别人伤害我,我对双倍奉还!”


Thursday, July 1, 2010 7:43 PM
since yesterday, been laosai-ing for more than 10 times almost 20 times liao i think.
KIK-ness!!! my butt sibeh pain now!!!
bleeding some more!!! -____-

dono what did i eat until like that.
my friends all no problem leh.
they had been eating the same food as me. zzz

sakit-nya!!! wan gila jor!
haih.
hope i get well soon.
if not sure need to go to hospital liao -.-

hello~
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 11:40 PM
hi hi! hey hey! ho ho! yo yo!
been a long time i didn't update my blog dy.
busy studied for my final exams 2 weeks ago.
didn't sleep well during the exams due to the stressed.
really pissed off!!!
after the exam,
I'm busy rotten at home so lazy update. hahahaha

today went to Christchurch to visit my friends.
sat on the bus for 5 hours,
my butt also flat jor -.-
tiring~!!!

oh ya!
this world is so fucking small and complicated!!!
seem like everything is connected to each other!
this and that ada kaitan bla bla bla!
ngai di~!!!
my head gonna explode dy after knowing those complicated stuffs! duh!!!
mentally n physically exhausted!!!

btw, i think fb has many fakers.
met a girl who i don even know from fb,
she sent me a mail,
after chatting for a while,
she said she likes me...
WTF!! i don even know her yet she said something like that!
gila babi!!!
almost fainted! ~.~

hell yeah!
Monday, May 10, 2010 6:28 PM
today actually finished class at 3pm, but bcz of lateness, me n my friends cant manage to reach another class on time. so we decided to go to study at the central library. started to study at 2.30pm, but i was just open my book in front of me without reading it >.< at last ofcz i did read n made some notes la. OMG! have to be hardworking la! final is just around the corner! =.='''

we stayed at the library until 5pm, my friends they wanna go to buy pizza as dinner for tonight. so we went to the Hell Pizza. i know the name is weird, but they really served delicious pizza! i ordered mine n my friend told me to add spicy on it. i don wan at the beginning but he said "it's not as spicy as Thai or M'sia food la! it's NZ here!" oh well, since he said so, so i decided to add on spicy.

after dapao, my friend sent me home. had pizza for dinner with my hostmom. the pizza was really delicious! BUT too spicy!! :s me n my hostmom eat until we felt our mouths were burning! really HELL!!! im gonna blame my friend cz he cheated me!!!

故事
Sunday, May 9, 2010 3:57 PM
這是一篇真實的故事......

這個故事發生在一個小鎮上......
很久以前,有一個女人,她是一個小學教師。有一天,她遇見了一個她可以託付終身的男人,經過相處後,他們結婚了。這個女人從小身體就不好,需要長期服用各種藥物來控制她的病。婚後,他們開心的生活在一起。女人辭去了教師的工作,每天都幫她的男人經營他的生意。雖然并沒有賺很多的錢,但也足夠了。

女人的脾氣暴躁,但她很為別人著想,也不會無理取鬧。但男人的家人對她并沒有很好。女人已經做好了自己的本分,但他們并不感激,還在雞蛋裡挑骨頭。女人很生氣,但她大多數的時候都忍了下來。

有一天,女人懷孕了。這因該是一件很開心的事,而女人和她的男人也真的很開心(因為女人長期服用藥物,使她并不容易懷有身孕)。但好景不長,醫生告訴這對夫婦,他們的孩子有可能因為藥物的副作用,造成先天性的缺憾。這對女人來說簡直就是秦天霹靂。

經過幾個月的反复考慮後,女人決定拿掉那個孩子,因為她不忍心看她的孩子在一出世就有缺陷。但由於胎兒已有幾個月大,醫生并不贊同女人這麼做,因為這會造成生命的危險,而男人也不希望女人拿掉孩子,畢竟這是他們的骨肉。

在懷孕的這段期間,女人簡直受盡了折磨。由於藥物的副作用,女人的骨骼太脆弱,因為無法承受胎兒的重量,而導致盆骨斷裂。骨頭插在女人的肉,使女人就連走一段短短的路,都痛的冷汗直流。
臨盆後(是個女兒),女人就飛往吉隆坡進行手術,把孩子留在家裡讓公婆照顧。

手術是把女人的骨頭鋸掉,然後裝上鐵條。因為在鋸鐵條的長度時的差距,使女人一雙腳長度不一樣,便成了長短腿。

這個孩子并沒有像醫生說的擁有先天性的缺陷,反而健康的成長,這使女人很安慰。由於女人從前是教師,所以她對孩子的要求很高。然而小孩頑皮,不做功課,常常氣的女人追著孩子跑。

兩年後,女人又生了一個女兒。女人知道自己對大女兒太過嚴厲了,所以對小女兒較為放鬆。而大女兒也因為媽媽長期嚴格的教導,成績都名列前茅。

2001年,女人照例到醫院檢查身體,因為某些原因,醫生要女人住院,進行更深一步的檢查。也許是病情惡化,女人在住院幾個月後,就昏迷不醒了。男人急忙把女人轉院到吉隆坡的醫院去。

女人的兩個女兒因為上學的關係,沒有辦法一同去,所以唯有等到學校假期時才飛往吉隆坡。而男人全天候守在女人的病床旁,但女人從沒醒來過。

幾個月後的某一天,女人醒了,而且精神也不錯,醫生說她可以出院了,所以男人就帶著女人回到小鎮修養。但,女人像是失憶了一樣,竟然不認識她的兩個女兒(有時候認得,有時候不。大多數是不認得),而且行為舉止都慢了一拍。

好景不長,有一天,女人突然有陷入了昏迷,嚇得男人和兩個女兒束手無策,只好火速帶女人搭飛機飛往吉隆坡醫院。那次的昏迷後,女人沒有再醒過來。

女人的兩個女兒在學校假期由伯伯和伯母帶領,到吉隆坡探望她們的媽媽。

2001年10月的某一天凌晨5點多,大人們(伯伯和伯母)接到男人打來的電話,叫他們趕快到醫院去,女人快不行了!等他們到醫院時,只看見女人被白布蓋著,男人撲在女人身上哭個不停。女人離開了。

當時,大女兒只有10歲,而小女兒只有8歲,根本不知道發生了什麼事,為什麼她們的爸爸哭得那麼傷心,而她們連一滴眼淚也流不出來。

女人的遺體被運回了家鄉。喪禮舉行期間,男人還是不停的哭,兩個女兒穿著喪服,臉上卻沒有一點傷感。也許真的是年紀太小,并沒有意識到生離死別的痛苦。而大女兒的心態是,媽媽還沒死(也許是接受不了)。男人,還有外人,都說大女兒很堅強。

喪禮結束後的幾個星期,大女兒彷彿被現實敲醒般,意識到媽媽已經離開了她,再也不會回來了。這時候,大女兒沒辦法控制自己的眼淚,她每晚都在哭。尤其在她知道女人在離開前最放心不下的是她這個刁蠻的大女兒時,她更傷心。

那段期間,大女兒認為是她害死了媽媽。明知道女人身體不好,但還是常常氣她。她多麼希望死的是自己而不是她的媽媽。


現在,女人的大女兒已經19歲了,長大了,比以前成熟和懂事了。她衷心希望她的媽媽在天堂過的很好,很快樂。不要在擔心自己了。

happy mother's day
12:57 PM
this is the 9th year since u been gone.
at the year 2001, u left me in the world n u went to another world that i can't follow u.

since that day, there is no more meaning for me to celebrate mother's day.
cz u're no more here with me.

i miss u like crazy.
i wish i could hug u tightly.
but i know this is so impossible.

in the mother's day,
im not together with the family,
makes me miss u more!

i feel my tears is so heavy until i can hardly control it to roll down from my cheek.
i know i should be strong,
but it's really too hard.

i envy those ppl who can celebrate mother's day with their mom,
cz i have no more chance to do so.

i wish u Happy Mother's Day.
i wish u live happily on another world that is so far apart from me.
i promise i'll be good.
i promise i wont let u worry bout me.
cz now im more independent n mature.

I LOVE U MOM!

不在乎...
Tuesday, May 4, 2010 8:16 PM
"不在乎天長地久,只在乎曾經擁有"

說這話的人,一定是個瀟灑的人

一定是那種"我揮一揮衣袖,不帶走一片雲彩"的人

但當自己曾經擁有過的已失去時

有誰能夠真的不在乎?

也許時間久了,就能讓人不在乎

但當再次想起

心裡失去所愛的那種痛時

還是會使人不能自己